because you blocked me.

so dont bitch me later for not telling you straight up. haha.





i really like how you came to me, asking me for help.
but within 10 mintues i asked you for help too. and it came out as the same result:

you. yelling. at. me.




this is pointless. i know.

i really should take out that "you know im always here" because i should really stop that.

and its funny too. because we were just talking about something like this.


i can easily put you in their shoes and call you by their names, because it wouldn't make much difference. you do the same shit.







and you happy? i left this for the whole world to see.

new year? nahhhh..
the fireworks were for Melissa's birthday. ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIZZOOOOO!!!
[damn. i haven't said that name in a long ass time....]

You're 18... which means you can [legally] show up in........ yeah. ;)

i know we don't talk much. and i know its kinda hard for us to keep in touch.
i really wish i hadn't let you go. it was pretty stupid of me to let go of such a close friend.

but you know.. sometimes im asked this [rhetorical] question: "Ever had one of those friends who you haven't talked to for a long period of time, a year or longer or whatever... but when you guys talk, its as if no time has passed?"
you're always the first person to pop in my mind.

damn i've been hella reminiscing and shit...
and i actually remember the first time i tried calling you.
we used to stay up all night talking on aim and shit and eventually i ended up getting your number.
it took a week or so to finally grow the balls to call you.
i really wanted to talk to you, but you weren't on aim, and it was pretty late too. so when i finally manned up and dialed your number... answering machine. haha. that was a heart breaker... i ended up calling a shitload more times, and one time i guess i dialed the wrong number, because some guy answered and was like
"hello? what the fuck do you want? do you know what time it is?"
--"OOPS" (hangup)
hahaha.
eventually you went online, and i told you that i was gonna call...
..and we talked til 5 or so... ahhhhh. crazy ass times.
and those nights we spent singing and shit. haha.  "speechless" if the first song to pop in my mind. haha.
damn. you know what... all those times i sang to you and i don't ever recall you saying how much i sucked at singing. haha.

[so i just put on Speechless right now. and it gave me the chills and a bit of teary eyes thinking about it. =P]

damnnn. i hella fell for you. and we've been through a lot during wg. looking back, its pretty fucking amazing how close we really were. and in the past 3 years of high school... damn. i guess i just don't know how much i've been missing.

tell gary that he doesn't have anything to be afraid of. lol.
damn i dont know what is it with me... but your boyfriends always hate me. -_-

happy birthday.
hope you had a good one, and i wish you well. stay "responsible" ;)

i thought You had enough class to, at the very least, not choose one of my friends.
i was convinced that You were better than that, this time around.
i was tricked in believing that you cleaned up, and changed.



i gave You real second chances.

i dont know what's more pathetic, the fact that you think it's pathetic that a friend has my back, or the fact that you can barf all over my girlfriend's house and be a hot head about it.
i know that weed does shit to you, since when did weed make you forget who your real friends are?
and to even jump to conclusions and make assumptions the way you did, along with the shit you said shows your true colors.